You're Not Alone

How often do you find yourself wondering, what am I doing here?  “Here” could be the city where you live, your job or your major in college.  I’ve been there before and I visit on occasion now.  Not because I question whether I’m in the right place, but because there are some days that are difficult to get through.  I sometimes forget that I can’t fix every situation myself and that even I have to depend on someone else sometimes. 

Years ago, I was working in Florida and I found myself miserable in the job.  I didn’t understand at the time that I was going through that situation to show me that I couldn’t make it better for myself…only God could.  For months, as all the friends I’d made at work in Florida slowly moved away, I searched for another job.  Nothing came.  I was so desperate at one point that I was ready to pack up my car and move back home with my parents. 

I can remember practically hearing God’s voice say to me that it didn’t matter what my parents said about me moving home, He wasn’t done with me in that place.  It wasn’t until weeks later that I realized that as long as I was fighting it, I would continue to be miserable.  With that in mind, I made a decision…to be content with where I was.  Not necessarily pleased, but satisfied with where God placed me.  I was determined to be satisfied with my position until God moved me.  In order to make that happen, I focused on Him.  I learned many lessons over the next few months, but during that time, I was not focused on my situation but on God’s promise that He would never leave nor forsake me.  Things got better and then one day I got a call about a job that I hadn’t even applied for.  The job was one I’d prayed about years before.  My time definitely wasn’t God’s, but His time was absolutely perfect.  The experience I’d obtained in that job I had grown to hate was invaluable in my new one. 

God knew better than I ever could.  Had I not listened to Him, I would not be where or who I am today.  So, just remember even when you’re in that place and you don’t understand how you got there or why you haven’t left, trust God and act when He tells you to, not before.  Don’t move on your own.  We inevitably make bad decisions because we can’t see all the angles.  Only God can and He has your best interests are heart.